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"I've got my life in a suitcase and I'm ready to run, run, run away."

pretty much.

I'm so ready to leave Ohio and to move out, to just run away from this place. I'm ready for change and a lot of it. I'm ready to be in a different state and to start over. To meet new people and to just change everything. I'm so sick of who I am, the way I look and feel about myself. I just want to be happy, I feel stuck living here, I feel like I'm going no where and doing absolutely nothing with my life being here. I am excited though because in about 80 days or so, I'll be moving 2,000 miles away to live with my sister Toni out in Utah. I can not wait! I hope it works out, I hope that we'll get the apartment and it'll be everything that I'm wanting and hoping it'll be. I'm just ready for something new and to be in a totally different enviroment. It's weird though because I seriously hate people, they just get on my nerves. And I hate change so for me to be saying I want change and to actually want to meet and be around people is huge! I think I'm just finally growing up and trying to get the most out of life. I guess after living one way for 19 years gets pretty old. I'm super excited though, I can't remember the last time I was this excited. Okay actually I can but I'm not going to say when or what it was about :). But this is so awesome. I can't believe I'll actually be out of here in about 80 days! eee. Now I've just got to decide what I want to go to school for. I've 3 things that I've been thinking about. Dietetics, Culinary Arts and Esthetics. hmmm I don't know which one would be the best for me. I think I would do great in all of them but I'm just afraid that I'll start one of them and then get bored with it and quit. I tend to do that a lot! We'll see what happens.