lovely.

I love, love, love different ethinicities. I'm always telling my mom that I'm going to marry someone of a different race than me so that my kids will be mixed and different looking. Today at church I got to help my mom in the nursery and she asked me to take pictures of all the kids for a little project she was doing. I was so excited because I love taking pictures and little kids. It's crazy how much they can make you smile and brighten your day just by looking at you and smiling. There was this one little boy that was so adorable. I'm pretty sure he's a mix of Asian and Hispanic. He's definitely something different, I loved it. Don't get me wrong I thought all the little kids in the nursery were adorable and all beautiful but just this one was so different loooking lol I loved it.
After helping out my mom today it just clarified how much I love different looking people and how much I want to, need to, have to travel and meet the beautiful people of the world. And how much I want to be with someone who is a different race than me haha. just so our kids will look different haha. But really I love different cultures and learning about others.

Here are a few pictures I took.









I thought this was way cute.

kiddo.

Kortnee and I got bored so we decided to make a little video.
enjoy kids.

hi. hello.

you can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've, should've happened...or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move on.

That pretty much sums up my year. One thing that I've learned in 2009 is to not let what happened in the past affect my future, how I feel about myself or my relationships with those around me. So what if a silly boy doesn't like me? I don't see the harm in staying good friends with him. Yeah that situation could've, would've and should've gone awhole lot better. If only I didn't overreact over some silly thing or if I just did not care whether he liked me or not and had just been myself. But it wasn't all my fault. Guys should just be honest, don't lead others on and don't be total douche bags. end of story. I think that if I just sit around and waste my over anyalzing the situation with him then I'm going to go crazy and probably say things I shouldn't and make the situation worse and risk even being friends. So I'm going to stop thinking about it. Its not worth my time or energy. When it comes to boys I've learned to take things slow and to just be yourself with them even if they say stuff that throws you off or hurts your feelings.

When it comes to friends I've learned that we're going to grow apart. we're going to change. life will change. So I can't just sit and wonder maybe if I had done this or that would we be closer? I can only hope that as we grow up we'll stay close and not read into things or over analyze our friendship. And to not get worked up over little things and make situations awkward. I have a tendacy of doing that. -__-

I think I've learned a lot about myself over the past year well more like the past few months. I've learned that I'm a kind, fun loving, funny, outgoing, caring, random and forgiving person. Who loves to laugh and smile, act crazy and say weird things. I'll bend over backwards, put you before myself, do anything and everything for you. I believe that, that is my way of showing how much I love and care for you. I pay attention to the little things that you do and say. I look up to those around me and every single person that is in my life whether they're still in it or not or if I've only known them for 5 months, has been or is an example to me. I truly hope that this year, 2010 brings more happiness and joy. And that the friendships that I have or will have will continue to grow and become stronger and closer.